Thursday, February 23, 2012 - Day 1

Wow, what a day! Arrived to the hospital today at 10:30am and of course Laci fell asleep as soon as we pulled in the parking lot. Wife went in to register so at least she could get a little nap in before everything kicked off. It was good for me too, gave me a little time where i didnt have to act strong. Sometimes a good cry is just that, good. You always see where this has affected others and you never know what its like until it pulls up in front of you and smacks you in the face. Well its not fun, and i weep for those who have dealt or are dealing with this. Sorry a little of track there but im new to this journal/blogging thing. So we finally get called in and meet our team for the day. Great group of doctors and nurses, lots of confidence, very energetic. Makes for nice feelings when your stomach is in knots and your mind is racing about what this little girl is about to go through.

Finally at 1pm she goes back for surgery. Surgery is going to take around an hour to implant a port line to her heart. The port line is used to run IV's and/or take blood samples. It sits just under the skin on her chest and wont be removed until the chemotherapy treatments are complete. Then after surgery was done a nurse is coming in to do 2 bone marrow extractions and also a lumbar puncture. My baby is going through hell and i cant take any of this pain away. Its very unnerving for a protective father especially when your wife is in tears and you have to maintain the strength which is hard enough as it is. Finally at 4pm she is awake and in recovery.

So by about 415pm we reach our room for the week and see our lovely sleeping arrangements. But i cant complain too much since i atleast get to stay with my baby girl. Sad part is her crib looks like an animal cage but its only for a short time so ill make do. She is still asleep but opens her eyes for a couple seconds every once in a while. Atleast she is not in pain at the moment. We meet our nursing staff and try and get situated. Wifes parents want to get in and see Laci before they drive back to Marina for work the following day, so the nurse lets them come in. Good visit, its always nice when family is around. Got to also meet the Oncologist who was amazing and has a funny dry sense of humor. Almost socially akward but she is brilliant so it makes up for anything else. She actually started the childrens oncology department her so she must be doing something right. She gives up some good word and a possible treatment plan barring any unforseen uprisings.

Around 730pm my parents and our son show up. Also had some amazing friends show up at the same time. I feel bad for my son, he is 5 and is so protective of his little sister but yet he cant come in to see her. Seems unfair but at the same time i know there are other kids here already in treatment that need that sterile enviroment.

The Baker Clan as well as Ms. Forman brought some amazing gifts, snacks, blankets, and a huge banner signed by all the players, staff, and booster club members of our local hockey team to hang on her wall. My parents took over in the room so me and the wife could go eat some food with our boy and hang out. Felt good to sit down and see our son for a while. Really missed him today, so proud of the kid he is. I probably dont tell him enough but he really is amazing.

Now we are back in the room. Laci and mama are fast asleep and comfortable. I cant help but just sit her and listen to her breathe while i type. I know tomorrow is not far away and more tests are on the horizon. I cant thank the people enough that have been our support through this so far. Its amazing, and breathtaking.

I am new to this and hope i get better as i go. Thank you all again. God Bless and we love you all!!