Saturday, February 25 - Day 2

Well ill start with a sorry since i was just really overwhelmed and exhausted so i didnt get the chance to write last night.  You wouldnt think that sitting in a building all day would do this to you but once you add in all the thinking and emotions it is overly draining. 
Friday morning was a good morning.  Laci woke up and was acting just like she would at home.  Jumping, screaming, laughing and watching morning cartoons.  Nurses were in all night but it didnt really mess up her sleep which made it nice that she was able to rest.  Nothing makes me happier when my baby girl is smiling and happy.  Its so sad that something as brutal as cancer is living in someone who is so happy. 
I sit back and i know this may sound weird but i thank god that the tumor made her ear bleed.  If the ear drum would not have burst we never would have known that something was wrong.  Its scary to think how long it would have taken and how much worse our situation could be right now.  Knowing that this tumor is so close to her brain and i am talking milimeters away this could have been a ton worse.  Thank god it showed its ugly head early enough to catch it.
Back to friday.  I went down to the cafeteria to get karissa and i some breakfast and drinks.  Breakfast burritos, and oddly they were pretty good for hospital food.  Laci's breakfast was pancakes but she wanted nothing to do with them.  They said she could eat and drink since it was sounding as if the CT scan and MRI were not going to happen.  She didnt want her breakfast so she took a few bits off of moms burrito and had a little apple juice.  Sadly 10 minutes into breakfast they let us know that the CT scan was on so she had to stop eating and drinking at 815am.  Nothing is harder than taking food from your child and they dont understand why they cant have it.
Day seemed to drag but it was nice we had a neighbor come visit which was a huge surprise.  Laci was in and out of being in pain so we had to have a little bit of morphine administered. Luke and my parents showed up for lunch.  Karissa and I went down and had lunch with him since they werent going to let him in to the room.  Had a good lunch and also got a amazing visitor while we ate.  She had some extremely amazing words for us and told us that she had added Laci to her bible studies prayer chain.  Mrs W. we thank you for everything, your words and thoughts helped me a lot.  We finished up our lunch and headed back upstairs.  I decided to go in and ask the charge nurse for just a few moments that luke could see laci.  She agreed!!!!  I got to say i thought the birth of my kids were the best moments.  I was wrong, the moment where your kids get to see eachother after not being able to, the moment was amazing and will forever be frozen in my mind.  Luckily with todays technology i was able to get a picture as well which is above.
 Had a lot of people during the day send some amazing messages, we also got a few more visitors which was amazing.  CT scan was scheduled for 330pm and just like hospital schedules they came and got us at 4pm.  But hey i was fine as long as it was happening.
Went in for CT and they asked kind of a weird favor.  They wanted me to hold her as they injected the sedation medicine.  I know it comforted her but it scared the hell out of me when she just went limp in my arms.  My heart dropped, seeing your baby sleep is one thing, but to watch your baby go limp and asleep from medicine is a whole nother scenario.  Then to add to it, he tells me that is was propathol which is what killed Michael Jackson.  I know his dose was a lot higher that killed him but the initial name throwing in a way made me mad.  But i laid her down and let them do their work. 
After the CT scan of course she was mad and wanted to be back in her room.  We got back and found that another neighbor had stopped and left some nice gifts for Laci and Luke. We got laci situated in her room and got word that my older brother and sister in law had made it into town and were excited to see her.  We brought them back and i went out to hang with my parents and Luke.  Luke was so excited and i was too to see him.  It had only been a little while but it seemed like forever.  Love my little man.
Everyone hung out for a little bit and by then me and karissa were starting to get a little hungry so my brother took off and got us some In N Out.  For sure hit the spot, i would have eaten my shoe over hospital food again, it just gets old after a while.  The night ended for me with karissa's sister coming to visit for a few.  After she left they hydrated laci enough to start her chemo.  I couldnt stand anymore and my eyelids felt like 100lbs.  Karissa said to go ahead and go to the trailer to sleep and she would handle it.  What an amazing woman she is.  I know where my little girl gets her fight now for sure.